Heaven on Earth....Gokharna Part I

I have visited loads of places.....went on numerous vacations......But when it comes to nature at its splendid glory....there are few place that can beat gohkarna......Tucked away in the Northern most part of the historic state of Karnataka......It is a gorgeous mixture of green hills.....elegant beaches.....n of course god's gift to man kind ....WEED!!!!!!....

It's a 4 hour train journey from my college....We started off on a high!!!{literally....we smoked our first joint at the railway station :)}....It was a Saturday morning n the train was supposed to come at 7.....To our dismay all we could see was an empty platform with no hint of a train arriving.......Fifteen minutes into our wait, we were jerked out of our slumber by the announcement of the train arriving shortly .... We managed to convince someone who posed as a ticket collector to let us stay in a reserved compartment{ Bribery exists in all realms of reality ....Cant live without it:) } . The rest of the journey was relatively uneventful....We reached Gokharna road station at 11:30.....We were all pretty hungry .....But then we had to find Kutle beach first.......Kutle beach.....Pretty much the abode of the gods.....One of the most beautiful places ever.......The journey to kutle beach was filled with breathtaking views.......Green towering hills and golden sandy beaches blending together to such a level of perfection attainable only by the hands of god.....

Mother Nature aaaaaaahhhhhh !!!!!!!!!

The taxi left us about two kilometers off our destination.....The rest of the journey had to be done on foot ......A breathtaking trek down one of the cliffs that flank Kutle beach.........We reached our destination in about 15 mins ....slightly winded but otherwise thrilled to be "in heaven"...... { To be continued}

Sorry i have an exam tomorrow
I will try to complete this as soon as possible

I Dont know

There is huge vacuum in me . A void deep n dark , questioning the very purpose of my existence.I long to be held.Is that girly ...... I don't I am scared to be alone.....I am scared of wat it might do to me....Scared of that void .....that it might engulf me ....I am scared....

I am scared of wat is happening to me ....scared of wat i am turning into..... I used to be soo competetive...I had a set goal in life.....n i was willing to do anything to get there..... But now......Now i dunno.....Exactly!!!!....That is my problem
I DON'T KNOW

There are no aims, no goals , no inspiration.....nothing....Only a void consuming me .....Like quicksand....The harder i struggle.... the deeper i sink ..... I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I really am....I probably have what psychiatrists call depression.....Maybe i belong in an institution...Maybe i need to be strapped to a bed & given a shock......High voltages are known to set addled brains straight ......

The problem is ....

I DON'T KNOW

Mystery unraveled!!!

K lets get back to 7th grade....i was a fairly good quizzer back then .....n yah she was pretty good tooo :) .....Though i still couldnt match her(couldn't even come close:) ) wen it came to exams ...we were pretty even in quizzing .....Atleast i like to think so!!!!!.....Hmmmm the point is that i got to spend a lot of time with her .....kinda got to know her .....she was the perfect friend...The kind of person you just know that you can trust....If i had a crush on her before.....i fell head over heels for her after that :) .....


Ah but where was i.....n where was this girl with the midas touch...(everything she touched turned to gold!!!!!trust me )...She had this aura around her ..... like nothing could ever go wrong around her .....n i just loved to just bask in that aura ......Hmmmmm that sounded pretty gay ...what i meant was that i just loved her company :).....I was on perma blush around her......so much so that she actually thought that i was naturally pink !!!!.....I had to wait for a year for my first quiz with her though......but it was one of the best experiences of my life......


The crow might fly backwards .... the sun may rise in the west but G3 will defe top(A common topic of discusiion among us sad losers ).....She was sooo rampant that we often wondered how many hours she slogged everyday .....My guess was 5.....It took me about 4 years for me to realise that she never did more than an hour a day!!!!!.... I was still languishing at the rear end of the class......I was one of the laziest asses alive back then ......

That year was pretty uneventful apart from a couple of couples getting busted by teachers !!!!she eventually went on to win the general proficiency .... but i think i got more joy than her for breaking into the top 15 for the first time!!!!! I was on cloud nine baby ....

N with that i bid adieu to one more chapter......one more year of my story

My life

The most beautiful person in the world

The world is such a cruel place..... I am listening to her favourite song ..........wondering where we went wrong ....... Ah but nothing ever went wrong ......it was perfect......she was perfect .......n still.........her every memory plunges me into icy cold water ........like a thousand red hot needles trying to pierce my body.....I soooo crave for her touch n knowing it will never come is killing me .......Painful inch by inch ......

The world is such a cruel place !!!

Oh but we are not here to talk about the world are we ........So lets continue......shall we.......

So ......where was i .....Oh yah seventh grade ...... it seems sooooo long ago.....n yet it feels like it was yesterday ........It was the first of June n the monsoons were lashing with unrelenting fury .......The day was gloomy n glum .....(Especially since it was the first day of class after about 2 months of vacation)......I was pretty early to class that day ......So there i was ......talking to a couple of my friends........ about anything n everything ranging from the what we did during the vacation to the latest porn.....(Thats rite i am pervert).......N she walked in .......my jaw dropped......there she was ......

The most beautiful person in the world .....



Hey dun worry its not over .......I will be back :)

How it All Began

Ah.......But where do i begin.......


Welll here goes......


It all began almost a decade ago......And hey that is a along time considering i am only nineteen.
I was in fourth grade then .....Oh i was a rascal then as i m now .......It was the beginning of
class.....Day 1 you can call it.....She just walked in through the door .......I had heard rumours of this girl.... About her unparalleled brilliance....First in every exam she wrote....The EPITOME......"Living the dream" i quote one of my friends there...Ah but i could go on n on....But that will come later .....i promise......



Well yah ......she walked in.......n i released then n there ......that i had just met the most brilliant
i will ever meet in my life ......I realized then that we had grossly underestimated her !!!!!
Which we realized soon enough as she left everyone of us far behind ......I had pictured her as a bookworm......a boring person to hang out with.....I was extremely intimidated by her ....so much so that i realized that i couldn't even look into her extremely beautiful eyes .....She had to wear extremely high power glasses .....but contrary to damping it it made her fiery gaze almost painful to hold .....N it took me about 3 years to get to even talking terms with her .....That year passed without any serious incident .....she still kept topping every exam she wrote .....She kept topping with such consummate ease that there were moments when i wondered if this girl was even human .....or some ultra brilliant cyborg from a far distant time .......

I watched from the shadows as she awed one n all with her brilliance....... I was too young then to realize that i loved her ......Hey I still knew something was wrong ok.....The thrill i got from watching her was almost girlish .....

Not a single parent teacher

meeting went by without all our parents being told by our class teacher that her parents must have been saints in there previous lives to get a daughter like her.....Well she ended up winning the General Proficiency by i dunno how many marks .......more than i could count then .....of that i am sure :D.......Sadly she got transfered to another class after the year .......Apparently the teachers wanted to test her against every student of her age in the school ......So we take a two year break from the story .......My story .....

My LIFE