There is huge vacuum in me . A void deep n dark , questioning the very purpose of my existence.I long to be held.Is that girly ...... I don't I am scared to be alone.....I am scared of wat it might do to me....Scared of that void .....that it might engulf me ....I am scared....
I am scared of wat is happening to me ....scared of wat i am turning into..... I used to be soo competetive...I had a set goal in life.....n i was willing to do anything to get there..... But now......Now i dunno.....Exactly!!!!....That is my problem
I DON'T KNOW
There are no aims, no goals , no inspiration.....nothing....Only a void consuming me .....Like quicksand....The harder i struggle.... the deeper i sink ..... I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I really am....I probably have what psychiatrists call depression.....Maybe i belong in an institution...Maybe i need to be strapped to a bed & given a shock......High voltages are known to set addled brains straight ......
The problem is ....
I DON'T KNOW
Friday, October 26, 2007
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